All art is at once surface and symbol

Inspired by carriepika's post about Shadow fangirls who are just fine pairing our favorite black hedgehogs with their Mary-Sues, but object to Shadow being shipped with canon males. ('Cause yaoi is ewwwwwwww!111!11)

( HERZ SUM ART ON SHAD0W-SAMA ADN M00NBEAMZ TWU WUV!11!!! )

I dreamed the Special Edition of Mewtwo Strikes Back! (packed with Mewtwo Returns! on the same set) came out on my 19th birthday. I desperately wanted to buy it, but noticed it STILL didn't have the Japanese version in it (But added the Spanish version. WTF). I emo'd to the store buyer, but told me he can ship the Japanese version of Mewtwo Strikes Back AND Mewtwo Returns for me. Which made me a giddy, giddy soul. Before that, there was also Star Wars mazes (and a bishie version of Darth Vader that wasn't Anakin Skywalker) and basically a lotta Luke, Han and Leia. Another where the sky constantly kept thundering but there was never any rain or lightening, and I was out in my grandparents's backyard with their huge lake and walk, and Rouge, Shadow, and Uncle Rick, Aunt Steph and other relatives were looking at this HUGE pretty moth on a tree and such. Then me angsting how there's been more Shadouge hints and Knuxouge pretty much has bitten the dust. Then my birthday dream started, where I was typing in my LJ about how I'm 19 now, when I realized today was the 23rd, a day AFTER my birthday, so that confused me. There was also mazes and chicks hatching (and bleeding chicks trying to eat each other. oO;;;) and I was trying to avoid Metal Sonic while trying to pull out weeds in a maze/labyrinth dungeon similar to Adventures of Lolo graphics or something. The Mewtwo dream came after~ ♥

Bwarg. I need some milk to drink. My head's killing me, and so's my stomach.

After being blocked for months and months and months and months and months and months and months and months and months...

I have beat my Writer's Block on Chapter 3 of my Secret*Fic.

OH YEAH. WHERE'S YOUR GOD NOW PUNK!?

Talked to Daddy. No worries, but thanks to everyone who commented last post, especially Jai & Blue. *cliiiiiiiing* "Another side effect is losing your sex drive, but for you, I don't think that really matters. XD"

There's interesting things you find when you look up 'HAL' on Google, researching for PANDORA for the Secret*Fic.

Giselle's PokéPet

Christie the level 44 Jigglypuff!

Level 44 is when Jiggly knows Hyper Voice. :3 Maybe I should dig around the bowels of my LJ for my waddling "Mr. Froof the Lavender Hedgehog" somewhere...

Geez, Concept Mobius is amazing. Sonic Fanfic Writer's Haven here. oO;;;

Guess I'll have to find another way to burn Shadow's hands with acid other than being tricked by a "fake Chaos Emerald"...

Lala, I'm home. From vacation and first day of school.

Too angry to type about it right now. Too angry for anything.

I am so fucking infuriated I can't handle the world anymore, with its teeny problems I constantly overreact to everyday. Or school for that matter, if I can't concentrate because I'm mad about something I can't control all the time. Wonder if I can even make it or last long around my 18th birthday this month. Heck, I feel like I murdered myself already. I just don't feel the same anymore, and I mean it in a negative way.

I need medicine. Badly. I need to see my therapist again. Badly.

If I edge near Mom or Dad and/or hear them fighting (yet) again, I don't think I can stand it anymore.

Pretty much the only plus side right now is discovering an artist on DA who draws some kickass (if creepy & scary) things, so now I'm inspired (Haha, watch me spoil it again by typing about it!) and can vent by writing about Shadow being strangled by blood, bones (depicted as white veins), live wires that spark and coil and slice through his wrists/ankles/sides/body to electricute him, while P.A.N.D.O.R.A. sits there continuing to torture him, watching through his lenses while sipping the equivilent of Computer*Cappuccino. (Ah ha ha, and I have to go to bed. I didn't even finish 'cause I was too busy fuming~!)

_themantis is my new hero. *__________________* *glomps again for the spiffy new icons~!* ♥♥♥♥

Spidey 3 trailer: ...V-Venom!? *puppyface* :o

Yoinked from andheavenburns:

Talk about ten different things that most readers of your writing would never know or have noticed if you had never told them. This can be applied to both original fiction and fanfiction. It can be something as simple as an obscure literary allusion, inspiration for a scene or an entire story/ficlet, etc, or as complex as... well, just complex. Even just a 'why I wrote this' type of thing or something about the execution of a scene is fine. Just so long as it's something a reader would either never know or would have to have a very good eye to catch. If you can't come up with ten different things, try to come up with as many as you can.

Not really "secrets" but... eh. XDDD;;;

( But Who Am I to Tell the Pretty Secret of the Butterfly... )

Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd everybody's asleep but me. XDDD;;; Ah well. Gotta sleep for The Morning tomorrow anyway. *nodnod!*

But before I go: decent Geno/Mallow fanfic. I swear to hell, it's not by me. oO;;;; And--And THIS! "Implied light Kooper/Parakarry." OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD.

I couldn't believe it. I discovered fanfiction for two of my rarest OTPs and they're good. After I finished the second one, I wandered the rest of the first page of the Mario section like a kid who found two 25 dollar bills on the ground, hoping there was more...! Until I realized there wasn't any more and that the Mario section was the same boring droll as ever. But oh my gosh...! I knew there was a reason I still kept waddling back to FF.net. *______________________* But yeah, I'll be cradling these gems. Desperately. And think of how lucky I've become that day.

Well... I've done it. I finished a fight scene in one day. So far, it's five pages, and 4,520 words for those who think about word count. Still writing, but almost done with Chapter 3.

Good Friday indeed. :33333 *goes to cuddle gay hedgehogs plushies*

Top 10 FAQ Pages (Genesis)
01 Barney's Hide and Seek
02 Sonic the Hedgehog 2
03 Sonic the Hedgehog 3
04 Sonic & Knuckles
05 Sonic the Hedgehog
06 Shining Force II
07 Shining Force
08 Phantasy Star IV
09 Zero Wing
10 Streets of Rage III

WTF!? XDDD;;; I dunno whether or not it's apart of the April Fools' Joke at GameFAQs I missed or not...

( Yeah, It Starts Off Innocently. GG Sonic Game Rambles, 'Cause I'm a Dork )

And that little Insomnia Late April Fools post I did at fanficrants? Turns out even the grumpy ol' elitists there wish upon Star Road for more SMRPG fanfiction. Makes me fuzzy inside, actually. :33 I should write fic for that again, shouldn't I? Alas, I own my games, but my sister owns the system and took it with her to college. :/ I'll have to see if a cheap video game store sells one somewhere nearby, or check Ebay. That, and I'm getting teary-eyed for my NES too. It's the system that nurtured me for years and years, and Mom didn't let the family have an SNES because she felt an NES was enough. Hence, I missed out on CT, Yoshi's Island, Earthbound, SMRPG and all the good classics--basically, the cool kids had their stuff, while I was missing an entire era. But that was okay--things were cozy between my NES and I. And playing N64 after that? 'Twas a humongoid jump for me.

Now I want to spend quality reunion time with my gray old friend, except the last time I tried to play, the images got all scrambled up and blue and mosaicy and icky. :( I know I read something online how to fix that (something about pulling wires back, but I'm unsure), but bwarg. I'll just have to get a new one, or at least bring the old one to the store with me and hope I might get it fixed for a cheaper price and have new cords and such so it'll work fully too. (Though hell I want my brother to toast it to death like he did with several N64s, knowing him and video games. :/) I wanna play some good rounds of "Kirby's Adventure" and "Super Mario Bros. 3", without all the updated graphics and junk again! (Though "Kirby: Nightmare in Dream Land" was definitely a worthy remake, it's kind of like a game you play together with the original, to draw comparisons and such. With Meta Knight and the six different minigames and such, and the difference between gorgeous watercolor paintings and simple solid-color backgrounds) I'm still upset Peach's joke wasn't included in the remake. :( Okay, so maybe it wasn't there in the Japanese*SMB3. But still! It was funny! And a classic! :(

I dunno, it's just... I spend too much of my life online now. Back then, I'd used to have adventures out in the yard in the woods and such. But now, it's too hot where I live and I can't expect to find anything pretty without sweating to death. I'm not playing enough games anymore, but it's not due to age--I've already grown up to learn that you can love video games forever. It's not too much schoolwork either--I'm doing fine, and the SAT was a piece of cake. 'Cause you know... I used to be exciting.

( Non-April Fool Sonic Fandom Angst. Aka What's Been Wrong With Me Lately. (Includes Writing*Drama and Dagnabbit, It's Them Two Gay Hedgehogs Again...!) )

Ye gods, I've rambled for ages, haven't I? Dang, probably one of the longest LJ entries I made, if I'm not mistaken. Enough for an entire fanfic, maybe? I meant to continue writing today myself this weekend... oh well.

Here's some lyrics by NIN instead. No no, not your typical controversial destructive rampage or "I wanna fuck you like an animal~" stuff; this is actually a pretty sweet song. In an "Awww...!" kind of sweet. Still has your angst and darkness (though it's more proactive if anything, just like how I like my rock), but eh. No cursing, and there's nothing brainbreaking/cracktacular or disturbing either. The kind you squee and shout "W00t!" kind of Power*Song since "We're In This Together". *nod* Funkily enough, describes my mood and a lotta things that's inspiring me right now. Huh.

( I Won't Let You Fall Apart...! )

Wondered what hammered me at March? Well, now ya know. Overdue and needed to get it out anyway. Let's just say that the littlest things keep building and building bit by bit by bit until it gets too much. Building and building bit by bit helps recovering too. Funkily enough, I was still stable typing all that, unlike how March*Puri could've reacted. Hell, at the end, she would've spouted "OMG GO AHEAD UNFRIEND ME I KNOW IM ANNOYING AND BE HONEST YOU ALL HATE ME" emo trash. In case I am, well... *shrug* I'll be crushed. But I doubt it'll happen, since it hasn't before--can't say for sure, but--*knocks wood* Okay, I AM worried. XDDD;;; But flist? You're incredible. Especially since you've been with me since my most wicked whinefests. But now is the time not to be sorry for myself. It's time to pick up my life again. *works Juni'ichi Kanamaru tone* Let's move on~! :o

Dang. Never used so many tags for an LJ-entry before. Now, bedtime. *nod*

So, anyone remember the Sonic Shipping Badges I made ages back? Well, I've been thinking about 'em, and decided to make more. But! Not just that. Let's see if I can show a whole bunch more stuff I made in Photoshop before bed, eh?

Guess what, everyone? Secret*Fic Stuff!

( In Photoshop? Oh GOD No! )

Now, to post these before I procrastinate and leave them in the bowels of my computer & Photoshop:

( Badges? We Don't NEED No Stinkin' Badges! )

Right now, I just feel kinda bummed I can't make a Shadow/Omega badge, unless I was willing to break my back over heavily editting a Gamma sprite or something. XDDD;;;; Anyone think I should resize these as icons, by the way? Or show them around in shipping comms, particulary after I make a few more badges for other major ships out there? Ah well, I'm up waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too late. XDDDDD;;;

Meanwhile, I think meganubunny corrupted me. XDDDD;;;; Again.

Everyone needs to read Candle in the Forest by Temple Bailey: it's an old, old Christmas story... and one of the most touching things I've read this season. It made me feel good in a "It's a Wonderful Life" way... so if you're feeling a little miserable for the holidays, this might cheer you up on what Christmas is really all about. :)

Annnnnnnnd the Character/OC surveys everyone's taking. What, you didn't know I had original characters? :o Well, here's one...

( Character Survey: PANDORA )

Off to shower before bed time. :o