All art is at once surface and symbol

I guess this is the part where I explain my absence, huh?

It's been a wreck where I am. Namely Mom is at the worst of her hypo-manic stage again (and anyone who knows me understands that I do not use that word lightly) and it's been draining the hell out of me and given me lots of unhinged stress. I may have to move into Dad's office for real this time, but as long as Mom leaves me alone and never talks to me, I can gain some peace of mind. There's also been confusion involving my birth control meds, but I saw my gynocologist for that, so no worries.

Good things that kept me sane included Jimmy's 22nd birthday back on May 17th! Dad even got him a small present~ (We got him several WW2 books, including a memoir of the last Valkyrie) Jimmy and his mom and I ate at a glorious Italian restaurant, and its cheese pizza is absolutely amazing. The food was rich so we got stuffed right away and had to ask for leftover boxes. Then Jimmy and I cuddled at his house and we played Mario Party 3 in his honor before I went home.

Another thing I got to look forward to was art commissions. If Mom gets to go on her giant online shopping sprees, why can't I get myself something nice for a change? Both of them involve characters from my novel... and dear lord, I miss my novel and I want to start working on it again.

jazaaboo is an animator who uses her skills for a charites such as the speedgamers. You know that Pokemon video that I showed you several entries back? Yep, she made that. Unfortunately, she recently had to go to the hospital for emergency surgery, and a single night's stay costs $7000. That's American Health Care for ya. :/

Forwarding and spreading the word is fine and all, but I dunno. I felt like I had to do something. And $15 for a single colored sketch is easy. So I asked her to draw one of my main supporting characters: "Jelly Jane."

( Introducing Jelly Jane! )

( And the drawing itself. :o )

You can commission Jaz here. Her kindness is as great as her art and she deserves all the donations she can get. ;; You can even request a custom animation cell! :o

*crawls out of the gutter, aka the dude that gives you the Flash HM in Pokemon B/W*

Hey bitches. Want to read doll pr0n? [YES / NO]

( Why yes, this IS a real scene in my novel. )

( Posting before I get too chicken. NSFW )


Nothing like writing future smut to relieve the stress of the week. :o Or upcoming. God I hope not. D:

It's kind of a sad day when you realize your current biggest OTP is the canon couple from your original novel. Not that I'm complaining though~ ♥ But I do need to get off my ass and write. XD I'll do that after I shower.



GPX+ is a pain in the balls. I go for five days or something without them selling Fresh Water in the shop, and now they expect me to level the starters to 100 before the 28th. Grrr. I WON'T LOSE TO YOU GPX+

But I'll post anyway, just because.

[Poll #1441175]

Yeah, I'm going nowhere in life. Hahaha.

Ugh. Thanks to zarla my animosity towards JACK by David Hopkins has resurfaced. @.@ I neeeeeeeeeeeeed parodies. Someone feed me! But yeah. The reason I'm bringing this up is because of an original novel I'm developing. The storyline is small-band-of-freedom-fighters-versus-powerful-dictator, aka SatAM hitting an orgy with Animal Farm, Franz Kafka, Russian Sci-Fi and various dystopian novels, including WE and 1984. It's a dark story with an anthro cast about PG-13 or higher. There's violence, horror, war, crimes against humanity... did we mention torture and experimentation?

Suddenly I look back and think, "Holy crap, how would David Hopkins ruin this if he adapted it into a comic?"

I'll admit it. It's also my dream to see this novel adapted into a brilliant animated movie like the way Watership Down was. I wondered how on earth my characters would be adapted, if they'd have a "Secret of NIMH" style to them or something else. Freaky thing is, as much as it makes me curl up, Hopkins's drawing style kinda fits in the scheme of my novel. oO;; Not saying I want it (Haha, no. XD) and it's far too crude with too much anatomical issues, but the fear and grisly atmosphere is there... but the last thing I want is for Hopkins to cheapen everything by doubling the gore, feeding the villains corny dialog, and suck all the soul and sympathy out of my characters. Oh yeah, can't forget the misogyny. Under his work, Josephine and Penelope along with all my other female characters would have giant breasts with cleavage longer than the Nile, and Josie would get raped. A lot. Except if anyone in the Resistance is likely to be raped (already?), it's Bolt. Poor poor Bolt. Sucks to be Bolt. Which is totally OOC and just reduces the story to a furry's hentai fantasy as all the girls in my story are raped repeatedly for their fapping pleasure. :/

It's little things like this that get me motivated to start my novel again. Too bad my skills as an artist are still infantile, so my designs are still left to be desired. :/