It's Fic Time!

Here's everything I posted for pokanon so far. :)

To Forgive :: Ash & Mewtwo

By God's Hand :: Arceus/Damos (RATED R)

Any Color You Like (Morty/Eusine)
Heaven's Light (Cresselia/Darkrai)
Eternity's Slumber (Sir Aaron/Lucario)
Choco-love (Sir Aaron/Lucario)
Scolding & Scalding (James & Misty)
Curiosity (Mew)
Aphrodisiacs (Will/Karen) (PG-13)

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Mom won't stay quiet. Dad won't stop yelling. And they say they care about my feelings.

I think I'm too emotional and take things to heart too close. Is that why I take the simplest things too seriously? The need to prove that I'm right to make myself feel smart and intelligent instead of inadequate and small? Maybe that's why I'm a fandom hermit. If I debate or disagree with someone, I feel like I'm making them uncomfortable. Do I come across as pushy? Maybe I act the way I do because I'm scared. Maybe lonely.

Maybe I should keep an IRL diary again or something. So I don't have to constantly worry about sharing my thoughts and coming across as whiny, especially about same old, same old. Too bad I lose energy after scribbling with a pen or pencil for a while.

I don't really feel like writing, anyway. I feel like I want to recover some lost documents first. Even when I do get them, I won't feel like doing squat, will I?

I'm going back to sleep. Doesn't do anything, but at least I can get away from things and not have to think too much for a while.

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It's a weird feeling. You feel sad and you want to cry, but you don't because your face and your eyes are numb. Which makes my eyes ache and feel heavy. Ugh.

Dad and I went for fast food. It's not much help talking to him though, since he's feeling as gloomy as I am. We came back home to find that Amanda ran away again. Thank god two nice ladies found her. I carried her home and let Dad know she was safe.

I need a vacation. Like badly. Maybe I can see my aunt and my sister. Maybe I can meet LJ friends for the first time since some of them live in Texas nearby Corpus Christi, but that doesn't seem likely. I guess I'll have to settle calling my sister since she's supposed to be finished with her classes. She's been working so hard, I hope she won't mind lugging around baggage such as me.

I've been playing Nuzlocke on my brother's Pokemon Emerald and it's been a horrible day. I had a Zubat I was just getting attached to and was two levels away from evolving, and I lost her and Torkoal to a goddamn Koffing with Self-Destruct. Not only did I lose all my new fire-types, I'm at a humongous disadvantage. My two best Pokemon are Marshtomp and Gulpin, and I don't think my other two, Dustox and Mightyena, are gonna last for long. I have too many poison types. I need Pokemon with better moves and type diversity or I'm going to get slaughtered. I'm using Repel for Meteorite Cave so I could use Waterfall to go back later to the lowest floor. It might not even be worth it, since there's a 50% chance I'll get a stupid Golbat. The other 50% is either a Solrock (and I need a Psychic) or a Bagon. Bagon would help me so much it isn't funny.

But right, back to shutting up. Maybe I need to play games to feel better.