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Jun. 5th, 2010 01:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shamanicshayminMom won't stay quiet. Dad won't stop yelling. And they say they care about my feelings.
I think I'm too emotional and take things to heart too close. Is that why I take the simplest things too seriously? The need to prove that I'm right to make myself feel smart and intelligent instead of inadequate and small? Maybe that's why I'm a fandom hermit. If I debate or disagree with someone, I feel like I'm making them uncomfortable. Do I come across as pushy? Maybe I act the way I do because I'm scared. Maybe lonely.
Maybe I should keep an IRL diary again or something. So I don't have to constantly worry about sharing my thoughts and coming across as whiny, especially about same old, same old. Too bad I lose energy after scribbling with a pen or pencil for a while.
I don't really feel like writing, anyway. I feel like I want to recover some lost documents first. Even when I do get them, I won't feel like doing squat, will I?
I'm going back to sleep. Doesn't do anything, but at least I can get away from things and not have to think too much for a while.
I think I'm too emotional and take things to heart too close. Is that why I take the simplest things too seriously? The need to prove that I'm right to make myself feel smart and intelligent instead of inadequate and small? Maybe that's why I'm a fandom hermit. If I debate or disagree with someone, I feel like I'm making them uncomfortable. Do I come across as pushy? Maybe I act the way I do because I'm scared. Maybe lonely.
Maybe I should keep an IRL diary again or something. So I don't have to constantly worry about sharing my thoughts and coming across as whiny, especially about same old, same old. Too bad I lose energy after scribbling with a pen or pencil for a while.
I don't really feel like writing, anyway. I feel like I want to recover some lost documents first. Even when I do get them, I won't feel like doing squat, will I?
I'm going back to sleep. Doesn't do anything, but at least I can get away from things and not have to think too much for a while.
