A quick "I'm Alive!" post before I succumb back to reality.

Put your mp3 player on shuffle and write down the first lines of the first twenty songs, then post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.

"And It's Happening"

She keeps Moet et Chandon in a pretty cabinet
Merely the sound of your voice made me believe you were her
Every time I think of you, I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
Lie awake and look through the trees, my dear, my dear
She's into superstition, black cats and voodoo dolls
We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Feels like the weight of the world
Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Excuse me, but can I be you for a while?
Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child?
Why are there so many songs about rainbows and what's on the other side?
I wish I was infinite and given my way
One minute I'm in Central Park, then I'm down on Delancey Street
I admit that in the past I've been a nasty
Love is a many splendid thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love
Little do I know, little do I care, little would it help if I knew and was aware
If the sun went down tomorrow and it never came back
You'll never see the courage I know
I looked into your eyes; they told me plenty
This place feels so unfamiliar, and yet I know it well

Dude, that was surprisingly epic. It hadn't occurred to me what a total LunarEclipseshippy (Darkrai/Cresselia) song Kamelot's "Lunar Sanctum" is either. oO;;; Kamelot must reeeeeeeeeeally like Darkrai, considering the tone of their music and their lyrics relating so well to him. :o Hell, I can probably safely say they ship Darkrai with anyone, considering they wrote a big giant movie tribute to him and Alicia and Alice in "Somewhere in Time (The Haunting)". I would call it an Aegisshipping (Darkrai/Alice) song, but... blegh. The pairing's kinda gone on a Jeff/Paula route for me in where I went from "Ah ha, Darkrai liked Alicia. :P" to "Oh hey, hadn't thought of that, could be cute." to "Oh crap, reminds me of a friend I used to have. *hedgehog hiss*" So... yeah. The ship makes me uncomfortable now. D: Baaaaaaaaad memories. I'll still look at art and goodfic like I do with Jeff/Paula (and heck, I could write it if I'm in a good mood and you threw me a pencil), but my feelings on the pairing itself... bleeeeeeeeeegh. DDDDDD: (Though thankfully, my uneasiness from Jeff/Paula stems from trianglefic and not a verbally abusive ex-friend. XDDD;;;) 'Sides, I kinda knew from the beginning; I'm a Quiescentshipper, aka Darkrai/Alicia. :P Maybe I don't mean ROMANCE AND TWU WUV!!11!!1 (In fandom, relationship lines tend to get blurred like that. XD), but I do find their friendship bittersweet and cute like with Mewtwo & Ai and Shadow & Maria, and it was basically the plot of "Rise of Darkrai" for me. Screw Dialga and Palkia, Darkrai sacrificing himself for the love of a little girl who cared for him while everyone wanted him burned in a bonfire is touching to me. ;;

Dammit. Rise of Darkrai is my least favorite Pokemon movie, yet it's my favorite fandom currently. Maybe because it lends itself super easy to fanfiction and other creative stuff? It's fun to speculate considering what little development it was given in the first place *SHOT* and dammit Tonio's growing on me (I dunno if that's the right word, I'm iffy. XD;;) or at least my Head*Canon version. He's kinda a slightly messed-up guilt-sack. *cough* Stupid fucking Tonio. <.< He's fun to write though. WRRRRY

Nooooooooooooooooo. I feel parts of my brain going "LIAR LIAR YOU KNOW IT'S NOT TRUE" and goddammit I hate feeling conflicted. I DON'T NEED THIS ANGST NOT WHEN I'M ALREADY SUFFERING SO MISERABLY IN COLLEGE AND REAL LIFE. :( *sigh* Maybe I'll feel better fandomwise when I scan the manga, which actually doesn't suck. :P

So... screw the screechy shipwars, I crackship Cressellia/Alice and Baron Alberto/Tonio out of rebellion? :DDDD;;; *HOUSE'D!*

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah conflictconflict *hedgehog hiss* Could be worse, I could be guilty-smitten by Twilight. (Which I really love reading parodies of. Check it out!) GUYS YOU SHOULD SEE MY PLOTBUNNIES THEY'RE REALLY AWESOME okaymostofitisyaoipr0nbut someone cheer me up and send Staffshipping goodness. Nomnomnom Aaron/Lucario nom~ ♥ Yep, that's what I do. WHEN IN DOUBT SIR AARON WILL SAVE

P.S. "This Used To Be My Playground" is totally Madotsuki. ;;

Whoa. You did not.

Since fandomsecrets just recently updated, I thought I'd get this out of the way. So I make an innocent little comment regarding a poster's secret, and SOMEONE decides to pick a fight with me over something completely unrelated. How bad does it get? According to her, I'm a misogynist bigot for using the word 'feminazi'.

Thanks to her little comment, she rounds up a few people against me too and starts an unnecessary thread. At first I was confused ("Wha?") but decided to play along, because lulz wank. (Even feeling a little proud of myself. Just imagining the headlines... "Look ma! I made it to Fandom Wank! This is awesome! X333") But then it just left me baffled and feeling really irritated. How many times did I have to tell the same person that I do not equate all feminists as feminazis and I DO NOT BELIEVE FEMINISM AND FEMINAZISM ARE THE SAME THING.

Then I get questions thrown in my face if I believed "feminazis" were entirely a stereotypical fabrication or that they actually exist. Obviously, how can I answer this without sounding like a prick to certain sides? If I said they were fictional, they'd call me a river in Egypt and I haven't experienced the world enough. If I said every person born on Earth had a unique personality that could fit a stereotype exactly and that there are a number of people who fall into these extremes, I'll get rotton cabbages flung at my face for falling for the lies of frightened intimidated men whose masculinity/position of power is threatened his wife has free will and doesn't worship him 24/7 for every little bitty thing he does.

Thank god, I had defenders. They stood up for what I was trying to explain and pointed out the hypocricies and fallacies made in that person's "arguments". Just... ugh. Was that commenter analyzing my every word just to find something even slightly offensive so she could throw darts?

As a feminist, I resent that.

...Oops. My bad. That should be "supporter of equal rights for women", because people flare up when they see the word "feminist", which is why I rarely bring it up in my journal in the first place. ('Cause all feminists are feminazis, oh noes!) (...SARCASM! SARCASM! THIS IS MOTHERFUCKING SARCASM. WOULD YOU ACTUALLY TAKE ME SERIOUSLY IF I LITERALLY MEANT I THINK ALL FEMINISTS ARE LIKE THIS!?)