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Jul. 30th, 2009 08:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shamanicshayminI can't live in this house anymore.
I'm disappointed in my family.
Nothing but yelling and fighting and misery.
Dad keeps constantly losing jobs and cusses at executives over the phone.
Mom uses my little brother as a soap box, constantly criticizes and sucks all the motivation and joy I've ever had.
I can't live like this anymore.
Except I have nowhere to go. Can't drive. No job. I'm clueless as to how these work in the first place, and Mom drilling me every three minutes does not help either.
College? We've got money issues up the wazoo. If the problem isn't not affording it, it's wasting it due to my miserable performance the past two years and what a hopeless and jaded cynic it's drained me into.
I need help. But not here. My own fucking parents can't even help themselves.
Don't tell me I'm too negative. As far as I'm concerned, impending doom is all I'm smacked with. Whatever little bits of optimism is used to distract me from this atmosphere, 'cause all other peppy thoughts are virtually fucking ignored and crushed by the gloom of everything else.
I want out. But where can I go? Whose friend is willing to let me leech off their apartment without my parents going into a screaming hissyfit?
I'm disappointed in my family.
Nothing but yelling and fighting and misery.
Dad keeps constantly losing jobs and cusses at executives over the phone.
Mom uses my little brother as a soap box, constantly criticizes and sucks all the motivation and joy I've ever had.
I can't live like this anymore.
Except I have nowhere to go. Can't drive. No job. I'm clueless as to how these work in the first place, and Mom drilling me every three minutes does not help either.
College? We've got money issues up the wazoo. If the problem isn't not affording it, it's wasting it due to my miserable performance the past two years and what a hopeless and jaded cynic it's drained me into.
I need help. But not here. My own fucking parents can't even help themselves.
Don't tell me I'm too negative. As far as I'm concerned, impending doom is all I'm smacked with. Whatever little bits of optimism is used to distract me from this atmosphere, 'cause all other peppy thoughts are virtually fucking ignored and crushed by the gloom of everything else.
I want out. But where can I go? Whose friend is willing to let me leech off their apartment without my parents going into a screaming hissyfit?
