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Dec. 5th, 2007 06:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shamanicshayminToday in a nutshell: Appointments. Crying. Stress. Headache. Basically a bunch of my problems and insomnia will be solved by taking meds at the right time. Yaaaaaaay. Oh god, my eyes are killing me.
You get the feeling when the holidays just depress you because you're already depressed? Leave the Christmas cheer for the happy people... right now, I just listen to Christmas songs and I just feel sad. :( Not to be a Scrooge, but it's hard to feel festive when you're going through rough times and the choir singing "We Are Santa's Elves" don't give a fuck and couldn't care less. :/ I can see why more people commit suicide in December than any other year. *sigh* (Notice all the more popular/universal Christmas songs like White Christmas and I'll be Home For Christmas are secretly depressive/poignant/wishful thinking? THAT'S WHY. *DUNDUNDUN*) Maybe my Sarah McLachlan Christmas CD will make me feel better, it's that time of year anyway. Nice to have music that doesn't jam the holidays down your throat either. I should watch my Sweeney Todd DVD before the movie comes out. Nothing like celebrating the season with black humor and buckets of gore! XD
Not asking much for Christmas. Don't feel like asking a lot. 'Sides, Tim Burton's Sweeney Todd on Christmas Day is more than good enough gift for me. :o Dad sent me a lappie as a Hanukkah gift, so it should be here in a few more days. Lucky me. :o I need to figure out how to fix my Wi-Fi so I could be sent my Christmas Shaymin... and so I could breed you guys Phiones. CHAOS (the Japanese Manaphy) babies! :o Hey, why not? Special dudes, after all.
I don't think I can muster the energy to come up with anything for Holiday Funfest. Maybe some crappy poetry, but bleeegh. That's not gonna earn me any Starmen keychains. There's already the Pr0ntober entries I owe, but I'm afraid I'm gonna have to take my time with 'em. I don't feel like writing anything smutty right now, no matter how remotely fluffy it is. (Hell, I may have to start over on the Jeff/Tony one. It's not nearly awkward enough as it should be for the first time! :o) Heck, I'm just in this general writing block in general. So blegh. And I need to write something gen but even then, no bunnies on that and no use forcing myself.
Only thing I have energy for is researching cabarets. Who cares if it's got nothing to do with the holidays? :o I can't refuse drawing Tony singing at a night club in Moonside. ("You don't call him enough, do you Jeff?")
You get the feeling when the holidays just depress you because you're already depressed? Leave the Christmas cheer for the happy people... right now, I just listen to Christmas songs and I just feel sad. :( Not to be a Scrooge, but it's hard to feel festive when you're going through rough times and the choir singing "We Are Santa's Elves" don't give a fuck and couldn't care less. :/ I can see why more people commit suicide in December than any other year. *sigh* (Notice all the more popular/universal Christmas songs like White Christmas and I'll be Home For Christmas are secretly depressive/poignant/wishful thinking? THAT'S WHY. *DUNDUNDUN*) Maybe my Sarah McLachlan Christmas CD will make me feel better, it's that time of year anyway. Nice to have music that doesn't jam the holidays down your throat either. I should watch my Sweeney Todd DVD before the movie comes out. Nothing like celebrating the season with black humor and buckets of gore! XD
Not asking much for Christmas. Don't feel like asking a lot. 'Sides, Tim Burton's Sweeney Todd on Christmas Day is more than good enough gift for me. :o Dad sent me a lappie as a Hanukkah gift, so it should be here in a few more days. Lucky me. :o I need to figure out how to fix my Wi-Fi so I could be sent my Christmas Shaymin... and so I could breed you guys Phiones. CHAOS (the Japanese Manaphy) babies! :o Hey, why not? Special dudes, after all.
I don't think I can muster the energy to come up with anything for Holiday Funfest. Maybe some crappy poetry, but bleeegh. That's not gonna earn me any Starmen keychains. There's already the Pr0ntober entries I owe, but I'm afraid I'm gonna have to take my time with 'em. I don't feel like writing anything smutty right now, no matter how remotely fluffy it is. (Hell, I may have to start over on the Jeff/Tony one. It's not nearly awkward enough as it should be for the first time! :o) Heck, I'm just in this general writing block in general. So blegh. And I need to write something gen but even then, no bunnies on that and no use forcing myself.
Only thing I have energy for is researching cabarets. Who cares if it's got nothing to do with the holidays? :o I can't refuse drawing Tony singing at a night club in Moonside. ("You don't call him enough, do you Jeff?")
