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So this is what they call holiday blues?
Jan. 2nd, 2010 05:03 pmGoddammit. Figures I'd get these bouts of depression again for absolutely no reason at all.
( Finally got to see Princess and the Frog. Spoilers and Thoughts )
Sis is packing up and Dad's being extremely snappy, so here I am back here. God I need a new computer. I need to do something creative. I miss making icons, I miss fiddling with Photoshop, I miss listening to my Winamp library, I miss organizing and putting in new music for my iPod, I miss downloading and cranking up AMVs, I miss RPing, I miss chatting and laughing with friends, I miss talking about video games and literature, I miss typing away on my fanfics, I miss posting to LJ and whatever without wanting to strangle myself and the computers I'm using, I can't play special games like Eversion or ROMs, can't take screencaps, can't even do a chapter-by-chapter review of a book being deprived of copy-pasting and multiple tabs and thus making it more of a chore than a release, I can't even scribble in my notebooks without running out of ink in both writing utensils and inspiration. I feel like I've hit a major block and I want to go back to what I've saved on the computer, but nope! Can't. It crashes. Even my brother's computer is useless, runs slow, and instead of opening the page I want, it takes me to Yahoo Searchbar. I try to uninstall it, but oops, you have to close all the browsers! 15 minutes later. Fuck. You.
I feel like something has been cut off from me, and the only thing that's keeping me sane is playing Pokemon Revolution and Pokemon Sapphire. But dear god I feel like I'm out of wind. I'm so hopeless and lonely right now, dear god, I hate this.
( Finally got to see Princess and the Frog. Spoilers and Thoughts )
Sis is packing up and Dad's being extremely snappy, so here I am back here. God I need a new computer. I need to do something creative. I miss making icons, I miss fiddling with Photoshop, I miss listening to my Winamp library, I miss organizing and putting in new music for my iPod, I miss downloading and cranking up AMVs, I miss RPing, I miss chatting and laughing with friends, I miss talking about video games and literature, I miss typing away on my fanfics, I miss posting to LJ and whatever without wanting to strangle myself and the computers I'm using, I can't play special games like Eversion or ROMs, can't take screencaps, can't even do a chapter-by-chapter review of a book being deprived of copy-pasting and multiple tabs and thus making it more of a chore than a release, I can't even scribble in my notebooks without running out of ink in both writing utensils and inspiration. I feel like I've hit a major block and I want to go back to what I've saved on the computer, but nope! Can't. It crashes. Even my brother's computer is useless, runs slow, and instead of opening the page I want, it takes me to Yahoo Searchbar. I try to uninstall it, but oops, you have to close all the browsers! 15 minutes later. Fuck. You.
I feel like something has been cut off from me, and the only thing that's keeping me sane is playing Pokemon Revolution and Pokemon Sapphire. But dear god I feel like I'm out of wind. I'm so hopeless and lonely right now, dear god, I hate this.
