I see the angels, I'll lead them to your door...

Huh. Being angry, I obviously said some stuff I didn't really mean. Like Marth and Roy being a bore. 'Cause you know. She'd never get sick of a character because of fandom. But I don't want to ramble off-topic. See, whenever Puri tries to be hard-core and mighty and proud (even, should I hesistate and shudder from much despise, "elitist"ish), the "image" immediately shatters and her true side shows; Puri is a softie at heart. She can't sound bitter and jaded and mean it. 'Cause you know, something happens to make her squee or excited again.

KH2 provided me a MUCH needed break from the computer. Chances I'll be gone most of today (when it's daylight, that is) and tomorrow, 'cause I'll be busy playing it. Haha, and to think that video games didn't interest me anymore. Fooling myself YET again. (Played NSMB longer and longer and longer than I thought I would. How's that for "nothing excites me anymore" Puri Mode?) After reaching the 5th Day on Twilight Town (and already liking Roxas quite a bit), I went to bed at 1 AM, but snuggled in bed pretty happy, feeling more refreshed and looking forward to things for once.

3 AM. Dad, Mom & Sis wake me up in a hurtful argument. Obviously, I can't shut them out. Obviously, I'm crying. Obviously, I'm scared for a bunch of things I don't want to list.

See? This is one of the sort of things why I don't want children. So they don't have to put up with this crap I have to right now.

Is it so much to ask for, that I want to be somewhere else right now? God knows I've talked about the Rockies over and over this summer. But I don't want people to yell at me, "OMG YOU WHINY BITCH YOU'RE JUST RUNNING AWAY FROM YOUR PROBLEMS". Well, what the heck am I supposed to do!? I've managed my time, I dragged my way through, it didn't work. YOU try being in a household where your Mom is mentally ill, your dad's having problems and most likely snapped, your sister's home from college and already her parents are giving her a hard time, and your brother's pulling outta anorexia and pretty much all he does is watch TV or play video games. Then there's me. Who goes online. Is obviously depressed and been fighting it for months and months, and just when I think I'm pulling myself together, start thinking I have a future again, this sort of crap keeps happening.

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I have to sleep. It's 4 AM, and I'm obviously hurt. But is it worth more to stay to play KH2 or go to the neighbor's house as Dad says I could?

(no subject)

Passarino, go away, for the trap is set and waits for its prey!

You have come here in pursuit of your deepest urge,
In pursuit of that wish, which till now has been silent, silent...

I have brought you, that our passions may fuse and merge
In your mind you've already succumbed to me,
Dropped all defenses, completely succumbed to me
Now you are here with me, no second thoughts, you've decided, decided...

Past the point of no return, no backward glances
Our games of make believe are at an end
Past all thought of "if" and "when," no use resisting
Abandon thoughts, and let the dream descend
What raging fire shall flood the soul? What rich desire unlock its door?
What sweet seduction lies before us?

Past the point of no return, the final threshold
What warm, unspoken secrets will we learn?
Beyond the point of no return...

*

You have brought me to that moment where words run dry,
To that moment where speech disappears into silence, silence...

I have come here, hardly knowing the reason why
In my mind, I've already imagined our bodies entwining,
Defenceless and silent, and now I am here with you
No second thoughts, I've decided, decided...

Past the point of no return, no going back now
Our passion play has now, at last, begun
Past all thought of right or wrong, one final question
How long should we two wait, before we're one?
When will the blood begin to race, the sleeping bud burst into bloom?
When will the flames, at last, consume us?

*

Past the point of no return, the final threshold
The bridge is crossed, so stand and watch it burn
We've passed the point of no return...