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Mar. 4th, 2012 09:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shamanicshayminUsually, I look at my journal, and when I think about what to type, all that comes up is, "Where do I begin?"
A. I'm still alive.
B. My computer is still on the verge of breaking apart and still needs fixing. So I'm behind on MLP: FiM and HS, no need to tell me.
C. I have a trillion things to rant about (ex. the censorship of Derpy Hooves no thanks to SJWs, anime is a medium and not a genre and you're not magically "superior" because you hate anime, the ZOMG-Beauty-and-the-Beast-promotes-Stockholm-Syndrome argument is trite and old and I'm sick of hearing it (and no, it doesn't make you ~edgy~ to realize dark truths about Disney either), blah blah I'm fed up with idiots in general) and too exhausted to go through them all.
D. I still have Writer's Block and I beat myself constantly over it.
E. Might as well get into one of my rants from C. I fucking hate it whenever I tell people I have Writer's Block and I haven't been able to write anything for months, they tell me to "take a break for a while." Did you even hear what I fucking told you? "Not being able to write" means not being able to fucking write. At all. By telling me to take a break, you're implying that I've been working and typing, which I've been trying to tell you is absolutely not true. You're making it sound like I've been straining my brain by staring at a blank page when in reality I haven't opened Microsoft Word or a notebook in months because I feel like absolute shit. You wouldn't tell a person sitting at the beach doing nothing to "take a break" would you? That would be like telling an unemployed person who wished they had a job to "quit working so hard." It's a fucking kick in the teeth, and don't make me feel like doing the same to you if I talk about how I'm still stuck in my rut.
F. I really hope I move into Dad's office soon. I can only take one more day of listening to Dad yell at someone on the phone or Mom bitch and verbally abuse and drill Dad while he's screaming at her to shut up and yeah my brain just shut down. I feel under so much pressure and my thoughts get clouded and I feel so fucking depressed.
G. Saw Secret World of Arrietty, which is good, but that's to be expected of Studio Ghibli. It's more of a dub-specific complaint, but oh well. You get the ending where Arrietty and Shawn say goodbye, and it's all good. Then SUDDENLY NARRATION, which has never happened in the rest of the movie. In short, Shawn is all "I GOT BETTER. AND I NEVER SAW ARRIETTY AGAIN BUT YOU CAN TELL HER PEOPLE WERE STILL AROUND NEXT DOOR." I thought this was fishy, so I looked up to see if the monologue was there in the Japanese version or not. SURE ENOUGH IT WASN'T. In the original version, it was left up to the viewer to decide whether Shawn survived the operation or not, and if he did, whether or not he ever saw Arrietty again. But nope. American audiences have to be assured that the kid lives and have to be spoonfed every single fucking detail, because OH NOES WE'RE ALLERGIC TO OPEN ENDINGS AND WE'RE TOO DUMB TO BE SATISFIED BY THEM and that really pisses me off, because I find the original ending way less cliched and forced than the stupid monologue.
I'm not being anti-dub. Hell, I preferred the English!Spirited Away ending because I felt like the whole ~It Was Just a Dream~ thing hand-waved all of Chihiro's character development. But that particular detail in the English dub of Arrietty aggravated me.
H. Played and finished SA1. Was going to type in detail about my replay, but right now I don't give a fuck.
I. I've been upset for months (one of the reasons being the Block) and the little things make me madder/sadder than usual. I'm at the end of my rope and I'm already aware there's a trillion things wrong with me, okay?
A. I'm still alive.
B. My computer is still on the verge of breaking apart and still needs fixing. So I'm behind on MLP: FiM and HS, no need to tell me.
C. I have a trillion things to rant about (ex. the censorship of Derpy Hooves no thanks to SJWs, anime is a medium and not a genre and you're not magically "superior" because you hate anime, the ZOMG-Beauty-and-the-Beast-promotes-Stockholm-Syndrome argument is trite and old and I'm sick of hearing it (and no, it doesn't make you ~edgy~ to realize dark truths about Disney either), blah blah I'm fed up with idiots in general) and too exhausted to go through them all.
D. I still have Writer's Block and I beat myself constantly over it.
E. Might as well get into one of my rants from C. I fucking hate it whenever I tell people I have Writer's Block and I haven't been able to write anything for months, they tell me to "take a break for a while." Did you even hear what I fucking told you? "Not being able to write" means not being able to fucking write. At all. By telling me to take a break, you're implying that I've been working and typing, which I've been trying to tell you is absolutely not true. You're making it sound like I've been straining my brain by staring at a blank page when in reality I haven't opened Microsoft Word or a notebook in months because I feel like absolute shit. You wouldn't tell a person sitting at the beach doing nothing to "take a break" would you? That would be like telling an unemployed person who wished they had a job to "quit working so hard." It's a fucking kick in the teeth, and don't make me feel like doing the same to you if I talk about how I'm still stuck in my rut.
F. I really hope I move into Dad's office soon. I can only take one more day of listening to Dad yell at someone on the phone or Mom bitch and verbally abuse and drill Dad while he's screaming at her to shut up and yeah my brain just shut down. I feel under so much pressure and my thoughts get clouded and I feel so fucking depressed.
G. Saw Secret World of Arrietty, which is good, but that's to be expected of Studio Ghibli. It's more of a dub-specific complaint, but oh well. You get the ending where Arrietty and Shawn say goodbye, and it's all good. Then SUDDENLY NARRATION, which has never happened in the rest of the movie. In short, Shawn is all "I GOT BETTER. AND I NEVER SAW ARRIETTY AGAIN BUT YOU CAN TELL HER PEOPLE WERE STILL AROUND NEXT DOOR." I thought this was fishy, so I looked up to see if the monologue was there in the Japanese version or not. SURE ENOUGH IT WASN'T. In the original version, it was left up to the viewer to decide whether Shawn survived the operation or not, and if he did, whether or not he ever saw Arrietty again. But nope. American audiences have to be assured that the kid lives and have to be spoonfed every single fucking detail, because OH NOES WE'RE ALLERGIC TO OPEN ENDINGS AND WE'RE TOO DUMB TO BE SATISFIED BY THEM and that really pisses me off, because I find the original ending way less cliched and forced than the stupid monologue.
I'm not being anti-dub. Hell, I preferred the English!Spirited Away ending because I felt like the whole ~It Was Just a Dream~ thing hand-waved all of Chihiro's character development. But that particular detail in the English dub of Arrietty aggravated me.
H. Played and finished SA1. Was going to type in detail about my replay, but right now I don't give a fuck.
I. I've been upset for months (one of the reasons being the Block) and the little things make me madder/sadder than usual. I'm at the end of my rope and I'm already aware there's a trillion things wrong with me, okay?
