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Aug. 25th, 2003 03:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shamanicshayminI can't take this anymore. As much as I love them, I can no longer stand being around my parents. I know they want to help me, I know they want to bring me comfort, but instead they're making me miserable. Dad will only lose his temper, and once Mom gets mannicy, nobody could bring sense to her, not even herself. I'm just tired of hearing them argue... including myself joining.
Dad says things will get better, but I don't believe him. To me, it just seems like everything is getting worse. My party was ruined because of them: everything was done at the last minute due to unnecessary slowness, Dad and Mom were fighting again, Mom had no medication and wouldn't listen to anyone (which resulted in a ruined birthday cake and a nearly broken Gamecube) and basically, anything I dreamed about my party, everything went opposite. The only good part of it was talking to several guests, earning a few decent presents, and playing SSBM with my sister and brother. (And my sister would've refused in any other occasion, and my brother is a poor sport anyway)
I've tried to calm down by posting some cheerful events that happened, and hoped that just by talking to my friends, everything would feel better. But I was wrong. Instead, it the pain just continued. I don't know whether I should stay here or leave the house. I used to look up to my family; now I just want to avoid my parents like the plague, and this is the first time I have ever thought of them as that.
Now I'm being told that if I try to tell anyone how I feel, I'm just pushing my problems into other people. I don't want to hurt my friends by being depressed, but I don't want to keep it bottled up inside either. I just want some help and comfort so I can move on and things actually become better.
I don't know what to do. And I'm not liking this one bit.
Dad says things will get better, but I don't believe him. To me, it just seems like everything is getting worse. My party was ruined because of them: everything was done at the last minute due to unnecessary slowness, Dad and Mom were fighting again, Mom had no medication and wouldn't listen to anyone (which resulted in a ruined birthday cake and a nearly broken Gamecube) and basically, anything I dreamed about my party, everything went opposite. The only good part of it was talking to several guests, earning a few decent presents, and playing SSBM with my sister and brother. (And my sister would've refused in any other occasion, and my brother is a poor sport anyway)
I've tried to calm down by posting some cheerful events that happened, and hoped that just by talking to my friends, everything would feel better. But I was wrong. Instead, it the pain just continued. I don't know whether I should stay here or leave the house. I used to look up to my family; now I just want to avoid my parents like the plague, and this is the first time I have ever thought of them as that.
Now I'm being told that if I try to tell anyone how I feel, I'm just pushing my problems into other people. I don't want to hurt my friends by being depressed, but I don't want to keep it bottled up inside either. I just want some help and comfort so I can move on and things actually become better.
I don't know what to do. And I'm not liking this one bit.
