I'll be watching you...
Feb. 4th, 2007 09:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shamanicshayminSonadowlovers needs a Prize Artist.
You'd think I'd be excited after a few days of running it. Now I'm just... scared. Already, the fangirls are creeping under my skin. And I feel well... small. As in, little-girl-in-middle-school-gets-rejected-by-her-peers-and-cliques small. Already, I'm worried I'm not sure what I'm doing. Even more that when the fangirls find out I'm scared, they'll take advantage of me. I don't want to be manipulated for paying kindness. I can't just leave either. I promised Indie I'd take care of things and bring the club to life. I don't want to be stepped on by the fangirls--I want to stand up and show them I mean business. That they can trust me. I can't give up. I don't want to.
I just feel so uncomfortable.
...Huh. I find it funny people actually play this song on their weddings. I guess if stalkerism works, can I have VAST's "Pretty When You Cry" blare in organ when I'm the bride?
You'd think I'd be excited after a few days of running it. Now I'm just... scared. Already, the fangirls are creeping under my skin. And I feel well... small. As in, little-girl-in-middle-school-gets-rejected-by-her-peers-and-cliques small. Already, I'm worried I'm not sure what I'm doing. Even more that when the fangirls find out I'm scared, they'll take advantage of me. I don't want to be manipulated for paying kindness. I can't just leave either. I promised Indie I'd take care of things and bring the club to life. I don't want to be stepped on by the fangirls--I want to stand up and show them I mean business. That they can trust me. I can't give up. I don't want to.
I just feel so uncomfortable.
...Huh. I find it funny people actually play this song on their weddings. I guess if stalkerism works, can I have VAST's "Pretty When You Cry" blare in organ when I'm the bride?
