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Fiona says I may already be qualified for the last Mystery Poke, but eh. Just in case.

I'm so pissed off right now, and I think it's because Dad yelling on the phone rubbed off on me. Waking up in the middle of the night from a nightmare where a serial killer shreds apart one of your dogs is fun too.

I want a better picture of the B/W grass starter. There's too much white and such blocking the view. I expected the grass starter to be prettier or something. Huh. Maybe it needs to grow on me or I need another picture like I wanted. Fire Pig is my favorite, it's adorable. I love the pumpkin colors and I like that it's kinda wearing a mask/bandanna design. The evolutions will probably be ugly, but eh. Fire Boar! Maybe it'll be weirdly cute/awesome in a way. I don't care much about the water starter, but I expected that. Looks too much like a Piplup/Buizel hybrid. I hope its evolutions have more of a snowman look than an otter look. Eh. It's just me. Maybe I'm just adamant in Blastoise being the best water starter ever, but I haven't found the rest of the water starters exciting since then. Nowadays it's like I'm about fire with maybe a pinch of grass. Except Sceptile and Torterra are rejected in favor of Breloom and Roserade because I think they're cooler. Eh. So I guess I am about the fire.

THANK YOU for making the lead trainers older. I don't know about you, but I'm sick of being treated like I'm 10-years-old though I've been playing the games for this long. That, and I'm sick of shota/loli in the fandom. Sure, I always age up the protagonists in my fanfiction anyway, but seeing yet ANOTHER fanservice picture of May's boobs or Dawn's skirt and panties makes me want to scream. I just can't find the appeal in it and I want to punch something if there's a pr0n0 picture of say, Paul or Ash, and he's drawn as a prepubescent. It's not my kink. At all. And yes, I avoid those things every chance I get. They just happen to pop up as an unwanted surprise like mold in a sandwich.

Bad mood? Oh yeah, you could say that.

Writer's Block: School Daze

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Middle school? All of it. The one positive thing I know is that I never have to go through those 3-4 years of hell ever again.

Children are little shits. Especially when they're at the age to know better but they proceed to torment others anyway because they think it's funny.

Teaching is what people go for because Nazism is no longer a profession. How in the world did everyone else around me get so many good teachers and role-models. I've known a few I liked, but only three changed my life and made an impact on me for the better. The rest I've forgotten entirely and some others, well... how did other people get so lucky to have so many wonderful teachers that it makes it hard for me to relate to them? Mine usually treated me like I was invisible, even when other kids have stomped my consciousness to tears.

Elementary school was fun. I loved school back then. But I got to middle and it all changed. High school was boring. Just a way to feel smug because you're smarter than everyone else and you're bound to go somewhere better. But that "somewhere better" aka "university" turns around to smack you in the face and have you feel like you know nothing at all, subtly humiliating you until you've lost all sleep and pride. Too many goddamn contradictions. "Grades don't matter" yet I'll never get into the course I want if I don't have sufficient credits. "Take it easy and enjoy college life" when you have to study constantly and work on that paper or else you'll never get a good grade and be able to "take it easy" like you're supposed to. So many goddamn lies and false hopes. If I had known that I'd never take Creative Writing or enter any of the courses that looked interesting to me (again, I can't have fun or have any freedom unless I have credits!), would I still go back to my second year in hopes I'll do better?

What a disgrace I am.

Proof that I learn better by educating myself alone.

You can say my view of school has been colored since then. Yes.

"Haven't seen a book so in touch with evil since Twilight."

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