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Wanna know what's fun? Trying desperately to sleep, but you can't. You end up tossing around 4 AM, and you get all these nasty thoughts in your head by the time you take your meds again and get back to bed. I heard a fly buzzing, and I thought I saw maggots or a swarm of mosquitoes buzzing in the room. Turned on the light. There was nothing, thank god. But I curled up and tried to sleep worrying about the buzzing noise.

NOW I'm being told OMGgetoutofbednow! 'cause I have to go to yet ANOTHER dentist thing.

All I want to do is stay in bed forever. There's nothing for me out there, and if I try, my head just hurts me or spews crap.

Yes. I am perfectly aware the entire world as "Animal Crossing: Wild World but me. I want it really badly. Yes. I know everyone and their mother is playing "Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorny". I obviously need to be pushed into the store by rabid fangirls or be pestered until I finally have the stupid game. Yes. I know most of my ships aren't canon and never will be, and aren't nearly as wonderful and magical and "makes common sense" than yours. Unlike your ships, mine can't cure cancer: they 'cause it, according to sources. Therefore, my status is the scum of your shoe and I shouldn't be listened to.

Can you tell I'm sick? Can you tell I feel like sleeping? Can you tell I DON'T want to hit something or hurt someone I love? No?

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...Okay. Now that I'm back from the dentist, and obviously 10 billion times calmed down, let me explain some things.

First of all, I am NOT directing my 100% rage and anger at anyone playing "Phoenix Wright". The reason I mentioned it in my post was because people get into all kinds of games lately, with the good ones suddenly coming out late 2005, stuff I'm actually interested in, and here I was, sick in bed, unable to do a thing because my head hurt too bloody much to carry a DS. Everyone was caught up in something I was behind in, something I was missing from... I felt isolated and left out, not being able to play AC: WW online and whatnot. You know how testy I get when it comes to my friends and wanting to stay close to them.

'Cause mainly when I try to play games/join teams with someone IRL, they've already finished the game and become bored, or they see me, ignore me, and leave me to play by myself... when obviously, I needed someone to play with, someone who was interested, actually wanted to play with me. Here's an example:

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All in all, I'm actually upset by "Sonic" shipping issues again. If somehow liking one pairing because it's "most respectable to canon", your ship is "original" and "wonderful" and dubious of clichés and badfic, making YOU a step higher (aka more royal and mature and "smarter") than the scum that is the Character A/Character C shipper (being me), you can just go and bite your shiny metal ass.

I'm not angry at "Phoenix Wright", I'm not angry at its supporters. Nothing at all. It's aaaaaaaaaaaaaaall to do with the shipping world from an entirely different fandom.

Probably still haven't made myself clear, and... it's just been horrible. I obviously want to be left alone, but it doesn't seem to be happening IRL right now, which is stressing me out and pushing my buttons further, making it worse instead of helping me recover. Other than that, I did manage to nab the last copy of "Animal Crossing: Wild World" from Game Krazy. That's all I want to do: play AC. I don't want the dog whining at me for a walk, I don't want to be snapped to do the dishes, I don't want to put groceries away, I don't want to think about school, I don't want to think where that stupid-key-we've-ignored-for-monthsbutOMGIT'SIMPORTANTNOW is, I need REST. As in, space. Sleep.

I don't want to think of anything. Except to build my town.

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Yoinked from galuxkitty, here's the Drabble-Matic:

( A Late Christmas*Miracle Sonadow. :o )

( Swear Not by the Duct Tape, the Twitterpated Duct Tape~! )

( Vecpio Snow*JAWS Horrors! )

( Valentine's Day Shadega! (Complete With Love Poetry!) )

Yes, I'm aware how wrong some of these are. XDD;; Yes, I'm still wanting to rip throats apart. Yes, I'm still bitter and hungry.

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I'm sick of being SICK.

I'm sick of something ALWAYS being wrong with me, and OMG I'll never get better.

See, when you're sick, you're sick. When you're sick, it means you're worthless.

I HATE. HATE. HATE. Being worthless.

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I really wanted to avoid taking this meme, but... gah! You guys carry it everywhere! @.@ So fine. Here we go:

1. The first character I first fell in love with

2. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now

3. The character everyone else loves that I don't

4. The character I love that everyone else hates

5. The character I used to love but don't any longer

6. The character I would shag anytime

7. The character I'd want to be like

8. The character I'd slap

9. A pairing that I love

10. A pairing that I despise

"Sonic", "Mario", whatever. Whichever you positively know I'm familiar with. (Go with Nintendo to be safe)