I'm so fucking dead.

[shamanicshaymin]

I'm really lonely and under a lot of stress right now.

I have three eight-page papers to write. THREE. I feel woefully unprepared and crippled, even though I've been given extensions for all of them by my professors. I have zero confidence and I'm tired as fuck.

But if I don't do these papers (all of which I've asked for extensions for), my grades for all of my classes are going to drop enormously.? And it's likely going to cost me in the long run when I'm trying to find jobs.

I just want to go to Portland NOW and end my misery, but I can't because of these stupid papers. I'm so fucking miserable. I have no energy left. And even if I DO start the papers, my exhaustion will clearly show. They'll be so shitty that I'll get a shitty grade anyway.

I'm going to be stuck here. All my efforts will be for nothing.

Comments

[sarajayechan]

*hugs*

It sounds like you need to get some rest. Let the papers wait till tomorrow...how long do you have to do them? I'm sure you can get them done in time.

[masu_trout]

Hey there! I'm in your boat too right now, only with coding instead of with papers. It sucks, to be sure.

I honestly don't have a ton of constructive advice; the only thing I can say to you (if only because I've been telling myself it constantly this past week) is that even if what I manage to produce isn't as good as it could be, and even if I have to turn in something not up to my standards, it's a thousand times better than not turning in at all. Sometimes just picking away at the pile of work, even if it feels enormous, can be a really useful thing. I dunno if that even makes any sense or if I'm just blabbering - I feel like I'm thinking in C++ right now, haha.

And also, I really hope for the best for you these next few weeks! I believe in you and your paper-writing ability. (And also, kudos for asking for extensions; that ability to communicate with the 'higher-ups', so to speak, is a really important skill. I'm never so good at going to my teachers.)